Tonight was the season premier of The Biggest Loser. I have watched the show occasionally in the past and enjoyed it.
I am overweight. According to the BMI, I am obese. That disturbs me. It always has. I wasn't always overweight. As a child, up until I hit puberty, I was average for my height. Then, around the time I was 14 or 15, I hit puberty (I was a late bloomer) and I went from taking 2 shots per day to taking 4 shots per day. Increased insulin intake makes for weight gain, which we all know. But puberty often leads to weight gain in girls. So I've never really known what to attribute it to.
I never really let my weight bother me too badly. But when I went on my insulin pump, I lost almost 20 pounds in the first year. This was from the decrease in insulin, along with some small changes in eating habits due to my cholesterol and my blood sugar levels.
That made me feel really good. I didn't really have to work for that weight loss.
But then I leveled out. I have wanted to keep loosing, but I have NO desire to exercise. I joined the gym for a while, but quit going. I have never been an athletic person. I never wanted to play sports. In fact, I was just plain BAD at any type of sports, so I never even bothered trying.
When I was going to the gym, my blood sugars did such crazy things that it wasn't worth getting it figured out. I was either running up my blood sugars, to keep from going low during the work out, or I was going low and consuming as many calories as I burned in juice boxes to bring myself back up.
It was frustrating and I hated it. So I quit.
Tonight, while watching the Biggest Loser, it made me want to do something. I just don't know what. I don't know how to start.
My nutritionist and I met a few months ago. She advised me to consume 1300 calories a day to loose weight (that's with no extra exercise). I have done that some days, but most of the time I end up eating more.
How do you do it? How do you make yourself keep going? How do you count your calories?
I have spend the better part of my diabetic life counting carbs. Do I HAVE to count something else??
What is your motivation to keep going? Do you have someone to encourage you to go, even when you don't want to?
Please, lend me your tips. I need help.