Shortly after I posted my first request for guest bloggers for the then untitled "Your Voice" project, a facebook friend, Jessica Munoz, contacted me with a great post. She was actually my first reply.
I'd like to thank Jessica for sharing her post and her time. :) Comment and leave her some D-OC love!
I wear a sticker that states “It’s just a number” but I can tell by her face it’s much more than that. Had I known how much I would be cried on, yelled at and occasionally thrown I would have switched part places at the factory and became a digital watch instead. Or perhaps I would have aspired to be a meter model; flashing those lovely 95’s and 113’s in the fancy pages of magazines.
But alas, my days are filled with 400’s and 43’s flashing HIGH and LOW. I wait patiently after the LOW wishing she would come back and test again. I shout “I’ll give you a better number this time!” in the quietness of my dark zippered case eager to not see the flashing lights of the ambulance reflect off of my scratched screen once again.
She always comes back to me, thankfully, she always comes back.
Today she comes back to me with a renewed sense of hope, fresh test strips in hand. She has received the encouragement she needs to look forward to another day. An improved A1C, an “I know it’s hard but you can do this” from Dr. B, a hug and a “We love you” from her sweet boys.
The countdown begins; she is holding her breath…3, 2, 1…126! I get the smile I’ve been longing to see. It is just a number sweet girl, remember that. Keep coming back to me and we will work through this together.
Jessica was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes in February 2000. She's been on the pumping for 10 years and lives in sunny San Diego with her husband and two boys.